Monday, 9 April 2012
To heave a sigh of relief...
Dear blog and whoever that is reading this now,
I am very grateful to you for always being here for me.
When I need you, you've never ever failed to be there for me and let me rant at you.
When I am down, angry, happy or even when having mood swings. I will just turn to my blog to type.
It's become a routine that I can no longer remove from my life even if I'm locked up in a blog rehab.
Yes. I am addicted to you, my blog.
Through the weeks of the "Cineleisure's Next Online Sensation" Contest,
I have stressed myself to do my best so that I don't let down my group members.
Also, during these days, I have always been reminded to not lose to the people I don't want to lose to.
Now, that everything is over, all my hardwork is to be judged. I feel so bare and naked.
Other than this competition, I have also tried living a life of hate towards my ex-clique.
To be honest, I failed. I can't hate them as much as I think I can.
All I can do is trying to make fun of them, but everything is only apparent.
Deep inside, I still miss those times we had.
Dear blog and true friends,
I just want to be a normal girl who shares make-up/fashion tips and search for make-up/fashion tips online.
I want anonymous to look at what I want to share.
Blog, can you just be my blog where I can share my feelings to?
Blog, can you become a platform for me to share whatever I want to many many people who appreciates?
It's so ironic, I want to share my life, my woes, my love, my rants and new things to people who love to know about them but I don't want to share my life, my woes, my love, my rants and new things to people who hates me and that wants to hurt me.
Though, nothing is one-sided right?
I can't get a win-win situation.
I just want to blog on this space and rant and rant on how I feel, I just want to share new styles that I tried.
Why is it that when I start ranting, hates starts coming in too?
Yes, my rants are one-sided and there's a reason to why it is.
It's selfish and unreasonable mainly because these are rants coming from me.
Coming from this girl here typing this post and what's inside her mind.
I must be thinking that way when I was typing that way but why are you scolding me?
I don't want to be a blogger anymore, I only want to be a girl with a blog.
Dear blog, thank you for all the experience you gave me and you have been through a lot of things with me.
& for those of you reading this, if you have been following my blog for quite some time,
you might have also witness my changes in life.
From a 16 year old kid to a 17 going 18 year old teen.
The way I blog may change as I change, no one stays stagnant and stops changing.
I may become a better person one day or I might even become someone worse.
Determination to be better isn't enough.
Finally, everything ended. I can lead my life like how I used to since the start of Feb 2012.
No more hates, no more competition, no more "blogging stress".
Things will return to normal and I will blog my Look of the Month every month end! (:
I will still blog up random things or pictures or food or whatever that is new.
Though, I won't be blogging too often, you all can follow me on twitter @KiyomiLim or Facebook!
I'll definitely put up there once I update. Or you can even subscribe to my blog using google!
Up to you (: I just hope that you won't forget me.
So I will just be who I was and lead my original life.
Thank you all for being here with me through my thick and thins.
Thank you blog, thank you everyone reading this.